Life is like a labyrinth

Now is already 4.30am in the morning and i am here blogging.
no ideas why , just can't get to sleep and i had to wake up as early as 8am later on to head to school for chinese lesson. thing flashing though my mind. had some heart to heart talk with.
he is somehow indeed right , i should talk thing out with j , no point dragging. we had been dragging for almost 6month till now we are actually , in fact still dragging on. i know both us find it hard to let go , i believe he do still love me and so do i , yes, i do care for him and i believe he do care for me too.but there is alway something in between everything so we do have to talk thing out once and for all. if not , if this carry on. it seriously don't do the both of us good at all. i hate seeing you being like how i used to be after our break up. it do break my heart to see that.because still there is feeling.
and yes. i want a straight answer for everything.