Life is like a labyrinth

A long night and I am missing you baby. I am sorry for those harsh word I said J, I just don't want to give you fasle hope and don't wanna keep dragging the time longer, the longer it is the worse thing gonna get. You and me know very well what is in my mind now. Everything is just too late. I am sorry. You deserve better. Went party on sat to see G and yes he is really there. But eventually in his mind I went because I am a party animal but the fact is I wanna see him that explain why I am there but I think he not gonna to get this because I am tired of repeating this while in him is that I party because I can't stop it. I do really hope just one day he gonna know my effort. Which explain why now when he said I party I don't wanna explain anymore because the more I explain the lore he gonna think I am finding excuse to cover up my mistakes so the best thing is he find out himself one day. I will see you soon alright G! More stayover and meetup for us. Birthday in 2days time but yet no happy feeling this year. How bad can this be?